you are the one who remains in me that I can't forget

There is a very popular song lately, called “Remember Me”, performed by Nazan Öncel. The melody of that song took me back to the past. Just when I thought I had forgotten it, it came to my mind again. I think we don't forget anything.We just think we have forgotten, and as soon as something like a song or a visual triggers our mind, we suddenly remember the past.

Anyway, let me get back to the main topic. I am a person who falls in love a lot, but there are very few people I cannot forget. When I say I cannot forget, it means it comes to my mind almost every day.After experiencing some incidents in primary school and being exposed to a bad environment, we decided to move away from Istanbul. I was sad because I had to change schools all the time, but on the other hand I was happy because I was getting away from a bad environment.

I started a new school in a new city. I made friends very quickly at school. Some time passed and I fell in love with someone immediately. As I said, I am someone who falls in love easily. One day, during class, while everyone was listening to the lecture, I couldn't help but look at the girl in front of me. At one point, I tried to lightly touch her hair with my hand, like cats play with hair. Two years passed and I gathered my courage (it was my last and only chance) and went to him and said clearly, "I love you". Of course, his answer would affect me, but I did not take into account his emotional reaction. He said no and cried a lot.For a long time after that day, I was angry at myself for upsetting her. But at some point, when adolescence came into play, an obsession had formed. She always had a boyfriend, but even though years passed, I couldn't get her out of my mind.Even his girlfriends started to warn me to stay away, sometimes even threatening me. But that's what love is, it knows no boundaries. In fact, for that love, I was even willing to die and kill for him.But then when I stepped aside and thought about it, I realized that it was all a trick of the devil.

8 years have passed, I've had 2-3 relationships but I still haven't forgotten him, I can't forget him. There's a place called the gate of hell, it's been burning without going out for years, I think my love for him is a fire like that.

I have her in my mind in every song, in every thought. I hope life brings me face to face with her once again… I don't have anything to say, but if she looks at me even once, it's worth my life.

Note; maybe the translation may have translated some sentences incorrectly