i want to do something

Sometimes I want to cook, sometimes I want to pray, sometimes I want to write something, and lately I haven't been able to do any of them.

I want to do it but I can't. Since I mostly do physical work, my body is tired at the end of the day. I know this shouldn't be an excuse, but I can't do anything neither in the evening nor in the morning.

Sometimes I go to bed early at night so that I can wake up early in the morning, believe me, I can't do anything if I wake up at 7 in the morning or if I wake up at 4 in the morning.

Every weekend I fool myself into thinking that this Monday will be different, but nothing happens.

I was unemployed for 1 year, I just got a job. Of course, this is a good thing, but there must be other things I can do for myself besides getting a job.

I'm making a mistake somewhere but I haven't figured it out yet. I will get therapy again next month, maybe my psychologist will solve this situation.