Happy birthday to me..

As of today, I have turned 25 years old. 20 years of my 25 years have been spent at school.My last 5 years started with some idle jobs and a few relationship experiences at first, and have been continuing with good jobs-trips-new experiences for the last 2 years.

I was only 13 when I turned 25.I was starting to dream of age. I have raised the age of 25 a lot in my eyes, that age was a turning point for me.It still is, and I'm closer to achieving all of my goals this year.

But I can say clearly that no matter what I do in this world, I feel like I'm not-me.

For the last two years, I have lived the life I really wanted to live in every aspect. I have experienced all kinds of experiences.But from time to time, I have also shown weakness and made bad decisions.

My biggest regrets are that I do not have a clear order-set of decisions. Not being able to pray regularly is also included in this. And one of the things that I have disappointed myself the most is writing a book. I guess writing is a really difficult process. I want it to be done quickly, but I have never been able to gather my thoughts and ideas until now. But I hope that will happen as soon as possible. I will achieve that too.

In the end, I am happy with what I have experienced. I don't know what I will experience, but I don't care much. And I would like to emphasize again that; for the last two years, I have also been sleeping every night thinking about death and I continue to do so.